late night reflection

the desire to archive your ‘in the moment’ feelings, but also wanting to be reflected and.. well sane is hard. whether i’m excited or angry or sad, never really seems like a good idea. i’ve felt all those things the past two weeks. however, i’m trying to become a rolling with the punches kind of girl. this has allowed me to function but i sort of skipped the digestion part. i don’t mean to euphemize but visibility is a blessing and a curse. either way, i’m publishing this so i guess i’m asking for it. though some time has passed, i feel quite similarly to how i did when i wrote my last post. i guess it’s frustrating to me that things can’t be black and white, that’s probably where this common theme of comparison comes from. blessing or curse, good or bad, angry or excited. predictable but free lol.